Wynonna Judd admits that she’s “incredibly angry” at her late mother, Naomi Judd, for taking her own life.
“I got the call, and I went over, and I saw her and I said goodbye to her in the hospital,” Wynonna, 58, recalled to correspondent Lee Cowan, before admitting that she felt “angry” by her mom’s decision.
“I closed her eyes, and I kissed her forehead, and that was that. And next thing I know, I’m sitting here on the side porch, and I’m just trying to figure out what’s next.”
Wynonna continued, “I did not know that she was at the place she was at when she ended it, because she had had episodes before and she got better. And that’s what I live in, is like, ‘Was there anything I should have looked for or should I have known?’ I didn’t.”
When asked specifically if the feeling of anger ever goes away, Wynonna told Cowan, “No, I don’t think so, not for a while.”
Wynonna noted that she still feels her mother’s presence, months after she was found unresponsive on April 30.
“I feel her nudging me. And sometimes, I laugh. And sometimes, I say, ‘I really miss you. Why aren’t you here so we can argue?’” Wynonna said.
“She told me one time, she took my hand and she said, ‘My life is better because of you.’ Those are the memories that are starting to come through, more and more. I think when you lose your mother, a lot of that crap goes away, ’cause it doesn’t matter anymore. It just doesn’t.”
Wynonna will soon embark on what would have been a reunion tour for The Judds. The mother-daughter musical duo sold more than 20 million albums, had 14 singles hit number one and won five Grammy Awards.
“As I walk out on stage that first night, I’ll probably say something like, ‘It’s not supposed to be like this,’ because it’s not, right? It’s supposed to be the two of us. And I’m gonna be angry because she’s not there,” Wynonna said.
The country legend also revealed that she and her sister, Ashley Judd, put aside their differences following the loss of their mom.
“We both kind of look at each other like, ‘I’ve got you,’ right? And we look at each other and we say, ‘Yeah.’ We’re so united right now, I think more so than we have been in a long time.”
Naomi’s autopsy report from the Nashville medical examiner’s office stated she “had an apparent self-inflicted gunshot wound” and was “pronounced dead shortly after arrival” at a local hospital.
The toxicology report revealed the musician had several different drugs in her system at the time of her death, including medications used to treat insomnia, anti-Parkinson, depression and seizures.